Yesterday really stank. Thursdays are usually my favorite days of the week – the anticipation of the weekend, combined with that last opportunity to get a bit of critical work done before relaxing, generally makes for a pretty good day. Not yesterday, though.
This blog is aptly named. I struggle with being too open/honest and failing to think before I speak. That sometimes results in people I care a lot about being hurt when I share something that normally, given the time to consider first, I wouldn’t because there is no benefit and could only be hurtful for the people impacted.
Yesterday I did it again. The depth of self-disgust I feel when I see the wound on the face of the person I care for as a result of the idiotic words coming from my mouth is a little astonishing. And, there’s no taking it back. There’s no way to unsay the words that I should never have said. I like to think that I’m getting better and learning from these mistakes as time goes on, but then I do it again and cannot believe how stupid I can be sometimes.
Added to that moment of pain and frustration for the day, when I got home from work yesterday the pup had gotten sick twice and refused to take his medicine or eat anything. We had a long night of nursing our wounds together.
Then, somehow, when you wake up to a new day, there’s hope and possibility yet again. Hope that there’s a way to make up for the bumbling faux pas of the day before, and the possibility that maybe, just maybe, I’ll have learned the lesson for good this time. And far better, waking up to find that puppy miraculously ate his medicine AND his dinner and is feeling much better.
For that, I say, TGIF!!
Overly Honest 